A little space for the greatest person in the world –> hahaha

wow … 20 yrs old is coming lo … getting older n older … feels like an old man now ?? neh .. never … i swear i still can walk very well when i reach 100 yrs old or more .. haha … still a student .. nth change .. still need to study uhh …. when can i go out the society n contribute something to my country ??? errrr …. i think i can’t wait longer for my post as an engineer … is it a really suitable job for ? or a challenging career ?? hehe .. perhaps

new yr wishes ??
1. no doubt … aim for the highest achievement
2. healthy … for everyone
3. successfully in organizing island trip … oh yeah .. this is wat i want to experience
4. lucky draw to get one new vehicle .. mitsubushi triton .. hehe .. since i’ve been very lucky on this .. laz yr is tv .. this yr is rm100
5. won’t get sick la .. since it will badly affect me…
6. eat delicious n tasty food …hehe ( i want something different)
7. new laptop … (enough for me to download n watch a lot of movies)dada…
8. playstation 3… oh yeah .. my favorite gadget
9. meet more new friends ?? .. em .. yup ..
10. love?? em… juz let it be for wat will happen … at least i understand wat i’m doing … (ya know.. i won’t make empty promise)

happy new yr everyone … work hard n play hard too

so fast ler .. time so fast … end of first sem here .. hehe .. somethin’ i achieved … some not … bad so far … satisfied with my performance ler …

abt study de:
1. oh .. this i really aim for high marks lor .. haha .. so tried very hard to achieve tat .. some ppl even thought i’m a nerd … some say i crazy .. i stress ? study lik hell ? no la … i juz finally found i lik science mix with maths … ah … lot of calculation n law stuff .. theory .. watever .. i love them actually … somethin’ for sure is .. i made a right decision … second sem will be a bit tough .. but i can take the challange

2.group work ? i need a lot of improvement on it .. must work together as a team .. every one is a leader … really hope my group mates can understand le … last minute work makes thing worst … i try my best to do anything i can .. never say ‘ i don’t know how to do’ … if u don’t try  … u will never learn .. trust me … u will regret …my advice

3.em .. not over confident .. hehe .. work everything b4 i regret … especially final exam .. the toughest part of every sem …

abt friends ?
1. oh yeah .. i do know some nice friends here … seniors … em … most of them i knew from those activities i join .. i came here alone .. but i manage to make a lot new friends ( i mean more than i expected) … haha … especially tat commerce gang … intro nice gals to me .. but wat she always tell me abt is .. those gals r not available (in relationship … then juz friend friend lo)… ahhhh !!!!!

2. football gangs … ah ha .. these ppl really love football .. even i lost winning eleven to them (eh .. my favorite game) i my pay it back one day …errrghhh …

3.then gal friend? nah i juz always keep tat in my mouth la .. but havn’t really prepare to have one … juz be a friend ya …

abt my nex sem objectives:
1. be a SOAR adviser ….
2. get better marks (despite the previous marks hvn’t out yet)
3. learn some engineering experience
4. be sure of my degree programme (i’m now confuse with my major)
5. join some fun activities
6. maybe win a badminton tournament in curtin .. hehe(no ‘ weapon ‘ this sem)
7. learn some nice dishes from my grandma n cook for myself … hehe
8. nth else loh … manage my time well la …^^

most of time i can’t really make up my mind .. even it is a little things that everyone out thr can juz decide it in a few seconds.. wat will happen if i pick the right way instead of left way.. i learn this value during my secondary sch … n the conclusion is ‘ who care? ‘ .. ya ..it doesn’t matter .. as long as u make the decision .. juz walk on it n let it happen for wat will it be …

but today … midnight  1 a.m. .. 16 of nov, 2007 .. i feel scare if i didn’t make a u-turn n change my mind on tat day .. wat will happen .. regret .. tat’s my point … the time juz moving too fast n we can’t really predict wat would happen n wat wouldn’t … something juz disappear too fast or approach to u earlier than expected … n maybe u will feel sad or even happy abt it

my mind is telling me tat … life is juz lik tat .. fragile .. once u lost ur confidence or the strong will … it juz like a glass fall n breaks into small pieces … u can feel this kind of feeling which i can’t really describe it … it is such a complicated feeling tat could be different for everyone ..

feel lonely … feel nth to do .. no challenges .. no fresh topic for ur life … is tat the reason ppl sign the soul contract n giving up their rights… sorrow r left behind after this … r these ppl really found wat they want ?

sadly … i lost a voice again … if anyone ask me now … my ans is … i still hv a long way to go .. i won’t be satisfied if someone gonna shut me down in this way …

it’s been a long time but the memory is still fresh in my mind …deeply inside… it will never be erased..

dear friends.. this topic is not open for comment… it is juz an advice if u think it is .. sorry n thanks

b4 tat .. John Curtin Weekend (Add-on) first

As stated above, anyone interested can go check it out ler… hai .. dono why .. i always don’t hv the oppurtunity to spotted by this video camera … the media team even same group with me .. how bad luck am i… still got another 3 group la .. without media team … aiyo .. pity me juz got a few second session only .. forget it .. nx plan ? exchange aus CV with sarawak CV? u mean me got the chance to go aus ? wow .. i sure join ..haha .. free wat ~

back to the topic .. exam is comin’ soon .. everything is ok .. i didn’t make the wrong decision … top ? eh .. still a long way …  but i think at least i’m doing far better than b4 ya? hehe … nvm ler .. work hard it … if u start to think a nightmare in the future .. y not juz pay ur full effort first .. hehe .. same for my laz test … i don’t hv enough time to finish it … preparation is always important ya ? i done tat … everything juz appear in my mind in the last 15 minutes .. haha .. score more than i expected … but not high enough ler … try on the final

upcoming event: CV SOAR advisor … hehe .. i got the job finally … happy happy .. tat would be a great experience for me .. to interact with new students .. guide them .. n wat .. guess .. dance .. lot of dance .. haha … i think this could build my basic stage b4 the hip hop stuff … nx yr goin’ to learn break dance.. so try to learn the basic ..as much as i can first .. hehe … my dance still sucks la .. (but i will focus on my job as SOAR advisor .. don’t worry )

after this SOAR training camp .. kuching will be my nx destination … go visit emily ye … she said will drive me thr n here … n hv fun … hope she won’t ask me to sleep in her living room .. haha .. i’ll go thr maybe on 3 or 4 of december .. stay thr .. depends emily … if she halau me .. then i leave la .. haha .. so bad ya .. b’cos i will get almost everything free thr … thanks for emily first … i will share the expenses .. ( i’m not a selfish boy.. ok)

i’m active ? u think so ? si tan juz said this to me .. but i think i’m not really tat active la .. i juz think i need these kind of activities to gain experience … knowing friends … n take a break from my working space … exam … go for it .. score the best result in my life… y? b’cos i really feel confident tat i can make it ….

liverpoolfc …. go fight for the top also … reds r the great one

wat is tat actually? ya .. some sort of volunteer work .. donno aus  thr got or not ler .. hehe .. the programme is ~ weekend rural outreach programme … yayaya … oh man !!

if i didn’t manage to attend this programme .. i will cry forever … hehe .. i woke up at 5:50 a.m. on sat .. the bus was depart at 6 a.m. sharp tat day … so juz rush everything n jogging to the bus stop .. watever ~ the bus actually departed at 6:30 a.m. due to certain technical problem …

eh .. i was very bad luck tat day … the bus we took was broken down b’cos of overheatin’ …  but nvm la … then nx bus come loh … to make a substitution but wat again … the second bus was broken down too .. eh … so no choice but to walk to the long hse … haha .. this wat we call curtin volunteer is it? but half way sure got car to pick us up la .. so not really suffer a lot under the hot sun

finally arrive … traditional music … iban people … r welcoming us … ye heh i’m a bit lucky for it since the long hse is a brick building … quite modern … the other team is the classic type .. timber combine wood .. i think so .. since we r quite far from each other … but thr isn’t any power n water supply here .. oh oh oh … i gonna experience this … tell ya wat .. bath in the river .. sleep without fan or air-con .. all they hv is natural air-con … tat’s true ler … i felt cold laz nite even with the modern facilities …

yaya … laz nite wat ? i got drunk .. really .. these ppl r mad for party … b4 the crazy stuff .. we hv traditional welcoming ceremony .. related to the Gawai celebration … we dance with them too .. ngajat dance if i’m not mistaken .. but juz hantam saja la .. wow .. these iban people really got lot of tattoo la … i mean for those oldies … after tat … we start the mad party .. the long hse was actually having a disco party la … those ppl dance thr .. oldies .. youngies … everyone join together … wow .. n those iban gal very clever la .. they juz force us to drink their rice wine … n i really hv many shot for tat .. all r one shot finish …crazy man ..first time i walk into the classic iban disco … haha … one auntie n one uncle don’t let me go even though it is really late already … as we need to work for the nx day …

tell ya wat .. tat uncle n auntie wan me to do volunteer work with their gal .. i dono sepupu or wat kind of relative r they … juz push the gal over n dance together … hehe .. don’t think i will do anything la .. i drunk but i still can control myself … i talk with the gal .. form 4 actually …stay in the sch hostel since their kampung is very far away from the sch .. then lucky the gal run away .. wakaka … n then my bapa angkat come over n help me out from the mad disco .. oh yeh .. i manage to escape from thr …

oh ya … forget to say .. each participants r divide to different family as anak angkat … i hv one also … oh ya .. our main task was painting their main gate .. some kind of art stuff for their culture …so tired … arhh …

food ? oh .. kampung style food … since the village is far far away from town … so they got most of the resource by farming … fishing … etc … water to drink ?  mineral water ye .. yaya .. something .. i need to mention here .. i bath in the river right ? oh with gals also … ohoh .. they cover with sarung … n we bath together thr … haha … so .. can imagine la .. 

b4 return to the main city .. i manage to got a manik chain from them .. as a souvenir … red color de chain .. since i lik liverpoolfc … really great i able to grab the only red chain …

got lot to say but em .. pics r the great proof … later i got the pics then i post luurr .. since i didn’t hv any cam .. so if they giv me then i post la .. if no then no luuu …

p/s: i don’t think i can really bare with this kampung lifestyle .. but i promise will go back thr again since i hv left a signature on the group … n i really learn a lot from their culture including those i didn’t clarify above … makai makai … jalai jalai .. i juz know this iban language only

i realize tat finally.. actually wat.. i’m not really hope my partners r genius.. all i need is cooperation n partners who can really pay his/her effort on the work.. but it seems no one really understand me ..am i too complicated ? or wat? juz let me know ~ sometimes i juz don’t know how to show tat such anger as it will juz end up making a worst situation

so far.. i don’t really perform a good team work.. so bad then.. my new extra objective is to perform a good team work.. ha ~ such a funny joke… one more thing i wan to clarify .. sometimes u think i’m asking stupid question.. maybe tat’s really stupid for u but not for me … ok .. fine .. i will improve it but not so soon … as i think i still need to ask a lot of "stupid" question since i’m not really tat "clever"

gosh ~ … my second extra point .. "not to ask stupid question!!!!" …. as well as improve my language command.. since some ppl doesn’t really understand my words … but i don’t command well in my "international language" .. but i try to avoid express in tat way … i still can manage my anger.. if not someone will gonna receive my punch .. haha … i swear

em .. upcoming event … presentation season —> eh leh … juz like sup … so fast ler … my first sem here is going on november …. another great upcoming event —> weekend rural outreach programme .. wanna know more abt it .. hehe …. nex time ler … will post after the event… n then soar advisor … plan to join after foundation .. hehe .. wat is tat.. briefly tell u .. em actually combine dance .. fun .. interact .. game .. together .. a lot of good stuff .. haha … very interesting de

tat’s all my current plan .. try my best to achieve everything … go for it… life is filled with up and down .. n i really gain a lot of experience here .. n tat’s will only make me tougher … hehe

em … today a bit lucky … hehe i think maybe i hv make some good relationship with my room mates .. wow …how ler … interaction la(is it?) … now i juz know tat gal is younger than me … eh .. too bad …

em .. wat now .. my second chapter ? tell u wat … i didn’t play balls anymore .. but i think will get a chance to play badminton or football very soon … now my sport is dancing … traditional dance .. ouch! tat’s painful .. so far so good … lucky my muscle still can stand for it… tell u ppl wat .. don’t every make fun on the traditional dance … not easy de … modern dance so sad no performance slot for the open day .. but the traditional one is more than enough la … day day practise.. hehe i will perform during the open day .. hope i will not disappoint my team …

one more thing make me feel happy is … those senior praise me ler … ‘hey boy, u hv potential’ … ‘oh sayang … good good’ … ‘ hey dude u got improvement’ … ‘hey boy keep up’ … oh .. true or not ? don’t cheat me la … haha .. i try very hard for tat n i’m happy for tat too .. i achieve my second objective … how great …

tat’s it la … i don’t think i hv photo to show on tat day … n i’m still worry for the performance … so juz try my best first la … as long as i dare to learn .. tat’s already satisfied lo … so .. don’t hope so much la … n  … now everyone can dance .. hehe  …advice here .. dance can be very happy when u r enjoying the music .. oh … juz the begining of the first chap … keep it up …

oh … burden not yet come … but do meet a lot of new faces from different country … but i only know it is not easy to achieve my main objective … so .. really need double or triple hard work .. hehe … not many homework lik b4 … got time for revision .. sure ok de .. u ppl said wat assignment … haha … i think u ppl don’t know how to manage time la … i can handle it .. don’t worry

wat again … life is so simple here .. i quite enjoy with tat … beautiful view … but .. the indo fire is spreading through here … so … it really pollute the fresh air .. mining industry is very wide here … it should provide me a better oppurtunity on job training … hope i can do tat … hehe

ppl comes up with different purpose .. n so do i … so i’m not the only one … keep fighting my companion .. nx week will hav one week holiday … preparation for mid sem test .. haha .. i looking for it … don’t worry … it juz piece of cake

n for my friend … don’t worry abt me .. haha … it’s all going well now … pic … ? ya soon .. maybe … i’m working in my second objecive now … hehe .. will let u know soon if i really can make it …

don’t hv much chance to online … so .. stay well then … i planning for island trip in kk .. who interested ? this will not be a good plan … but i sure will go whether on dec or jan or jun or jul .. hehe .. keep in touch

start of the real holiday but it gonna end so soon … hehe .. time for sch ~

a really tough n stupid decision i hv made .. focus on my study .. pay more hard work which i always thought tat’s the only way for success.. take step by step .. never try to walk on a shortcut.. u will gain more experience if u did tat way .. my own concept for life

bad luck again.. the place whr i try to avoid for my whole life .. it seems my new chapter of life will all begin from there… watever .. just hope tat i’m already be wise enough for living independently

home town~
wat can i say abt this place ? comes out with a lot of funny problems … a place tat really need a good leader to do something to improve it .. forget it … maybe it is not easy to get one nowadays especially in this little town ….take care then

entertainment~
oh … wat a sad story.. i will really really miss this bt downloading i did for my whole holiday … movie still hv a lot to watch .. jacky wu’s show .. wow ! fantastic …but might forget it all for a short period …cinema … encore ktv ? hehe … also those cyber cafes … ya don’t forget my favorite jpn drama … oh latest drama … oh … detective story also … oh … i will watch when i back .. hope seeds still available for me

family ~
em … not much to say actually .. juz hope they all r fine here … grandma? should stay in well fit ye ? both grandma..mum n dad side .. haha .. since i never tell u face to face … grandpa ? maybe will go to visit u once b4 i leave since u never drop me any words b4 i leave .. em … thanks for everything .. good dinner … but sorry tat i can’t take a lot .. since i getting fat … haha

buddhist god~
keep fighting with me .. haha .. although i never believe even 50% on u …

friends ~
first of all … i will never forget any friend i knew … but since some of u don’t greet with me .. then tat’s not my fault .. juz hope u don’t dump urself into the wrong path .. good friend since i juz trust u ppl for 90% .. haha .. thanks for ur support n caring .. i appreciate for tat .. good luck n all the very best for ur path to a bright future… keep in touch then … normal friends .. wish u all 3-good .. good in shape .. good for study or work .. good luck too ..enemy ? em … don’t go fong kee funeral b4 me … hehe

hopes for the future~
sure i’ll coming back with glory … but my first objective is to get a scholarship …no excuse but to work harder .. harder … don’t give up dude … em … mix up with the bad company ? em .. maybe .. but i hv went through for tat once b4 … don’t worry .. i will always be myself .. change for no one but for myself

wat else ? hehe .. go for it …the whole new chapter begin

大概已閑了半年, 放大假放得太過癮啦, 哈哈 ! 整日迷戀在電腦前 … 觀賞電影, 連續劇, 綜藝節目… 還馬不停蹄的… 偶爾也聽聽音樂, 打打電動

靈感又突然來了, 就打個比喻… 蜘蛛人的電影裡, 當主人翁戴上他那超酷的面具, 在城市中穿梭, 與敵人搏斗時, 是許多人所欽慕的偶像呀 ! 但是在他取下面具, 穿上便服再混入人群時, 也只不過是個平常人, 為學歷而努力, 為生活而打拼, 也為感情而煩惱等等, 這是每人所不能逃避的問題

蜘蛛人只是戴上面具與壞人打斗時, 才是故事情節裡的主要角色, 再回到現實的生活中時, 只是一位在人群中所微不足道的普通角色, 這好比我們在現實生活中的情節, 在學業上也許我並不是那明亮的主角, 我也會盡全力去做好我的本份, 決對沒有太過份的偷工減料, 我也了解寶貴的機會是要靠自己來爭取, 但是有誰會認為這些機會是公平的等著我們來爭取呢?

當一部電影結束時, 不管是好的結局, 不好的結局, 還是完全沒有任何的結局, 這都是留給觀眾們去發揮他們的幻想空間, 最後的結果也只是繼續期待續集, 又或者是選擇看另一部電影, 同樣的沒有任何人可以預知他下一刻會面對什麼問題, 如果真的完完全全給你掌握了生活裡的發展情節, 那你還能體會人生所會帶來的樂趣嗎?

如果你每次都養成以同一個觀念去欣賞一部電影, 那不會少了點新鮮感嗎? 偶爾也可以嘗試看一部你從來都不感興趣的電影, 宣傳海報並不能完全道出那電影完整的劇情呀! 我們在生活中總是不斷尋找著屬於本身的成功之道, 可是卻永遠也尋不著, 或是找到了還不滿意, 倒不如換另一個角度去看待人生, 或許能改變我們那老掉牙的觀念